Kim Jong-hyun or Jonghyun (SHINee)

This is one of these days that I want to wake up from and discover that I was just having a very bad dream.
I’ve been waiting to write this post for a very long time, as you can see by the photo.
Why didn’t I write it? I don’t know.
I was waiting until I got to know him better, as I was listening to his music with and without SHINee, watching a few interviews and reading a few articles.
I did like him from the first moment that I saw him because he was funny and weird and I like that, he also loved dogs and I like that and he had a beautiful voice and a beautiful face. Kind of wild with his hair and his nose.
He always reminded me of a wolf but he was so gentle.
My friend introduced me to SHINee, she’s been a Shawol for Five years and was cunningly trying to make me listen to them.
“Did you hear Onew yet, did you listen to Jonghyun?”
The first thing that I listened to was “Breathe”, I listened to it because of Lee Hi.
My friend then told me how Jonghyun wrote this song.
As I started listening to other songs, I bumped into his version of Alejandro Sanz’s ‘Y, ¿Si Fuera Ella?’.
Wow, how did he know that song? Did he like Alejandro Sanz, I like him too.
And so I started my journey into Jonghyun’s music.
Meanwhile, my friend was educating me with videos and information and part of this information was “Jonghyun cries a lot.”
“Why does he cry?”
“I don’t know, I guess that the music makes him emotional.”
I always thought it was strange, that he cried so much.
When Onew couldn’t perform with SHINee lately, my friend was wondering who was going to comfort Jonghyun when he cries, that was Onew’s part.
In fact, I saw a few tweets about it and I wondered again, as I saw Onew, hugging crying Jonghyun, is this what excitement looks like? It looks like his heart is breaking.
Yesterday, after an argument over depression with someone who was having fun with my distress and anger, I’ve decided to go back to a draft about depression that I also wanted to write for a while now and as I was checking the tabs on my browser, I came across an article about Jonghyun that I kept open for a very long time.

Jonghyun article photo

SHINee’s jonghyun cries openly about how fans others perceive him

A beautiful, smart, talented, lonely man who thought that people didn’t want to know the real him.
“As tears fell, Jonghyun continued, “Before, I would want to show the real side of me because of the unfair things that people said about me, but I realized that it was impossible and tried to think why people thought of me in that manner.”
“I thought that people didn’t want to know the real me. There aren’t that many people who would want to know the real me. Of course, not much has changed since then, but if I were to express myself first, then wouldn’t they think differently?”

Today, as I was looking for my old draft about Jonghyun, I saw that his and the draft about depression came one after the other. Only Four days separates the both of them.


Depression is an illness, like any other but it’s harder to treat because it’s mental and not physical.
Depression can strike anyone, you family members, your teachers, your friends, your idols.
We are all just people.
Don’t judge, support.

This is a link that was part of the original draft that I was going to write back then.
I wanted to show how kind he was, how open minded, how willing he was to stand up for the things that he believes in.

SHINee’s Jonghyun under attack for his support of the sexual minority

I guess that this is a confused post because I’m confused, and very sad so you’ll have to forgive me as a member of the “Surviving with depression” club who lost today a very precious member.

I can’t listen to his songs for now so I won’t post anything, perhaps later on when things sink in.

Rest in peace, good soul. I hope that the pain is over now.

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On the way to the airport or Road to the Airport or Gonghang-ganeun Gil (2017)

Choi Soo-ah is a flight attendant and her husband, Park Jin-seok is a captain. The both work for the same airline
These two are very busy, so busy that they can’t possibly take care of their only daughter.
On her way home from a flight, Soo-ah is informed by Jin-seok, that he is sending their daughter, Park Hyo-eun, to study in an international school in Malaysia.
For some reason, Jin-seok wants to send his child away and is very disappointed that the plan to have her living and studying in New-Zealand, with his sister, has failed when she got hurt.
Song Mi-jin, Soo-ah’s friend and co worker, helped with picking Hyo-eun new school and living arrangement by consulting with someone that she knows.
That someone is her friend’s friend, Seo Do-Woo, a part time architecture teacher who’s daughter, Annie Seo studies in Malaysia.
Soo-ah shows no resistance whatsoever to her husbands heartless plan and despite Hyo-eun’s plies, accompanies her to her new life and school, abroad.
Annie Seo is in no hurry to get back to Korea, she doesn’t even want to come for visits. Her excuse is that missing Korea and not visiting, makes her stronger.
However, it looks like this strange excuse is exactly that.
Annie plans on coming back to Korea to visit her grandmother on her birthday but her mother stops her with a phone call, when she is at the airport.
As Annie runs out of the terminal while crying, disaster strikes as she gets hit by a car.
Annie wasn’t Do-woo’s biological daughter, he just married her mother but it’s obvious that her mother didn’t care about her too much.
Kim Hye-won, had Annie when she was very young.  By what she told Do-woo, Annie’s father neglected her and the baby but that’s no reason to treat your own daughter like trash.
She met Do-woon after she was accepted as an intern at his mother’s Korean knot center.
Do-woo came to visit Annie in Malaysia, he wanted her to come and visit Korea, he was on a plane to Malaysia when he heard of the accident and while Hye-won didn’t even bother to come, he was devastated when she died.
Hye-won didn’t attend Annie’s cremation and asked Do-woo not to bring her ashes back to Korea and to get rid of her things.
Yes, she did cry a bit but was more concerned with the thought that Annie might have hated her and perhaps has written something about it in her diary, than with the fact that Annie is gone.
In the span of twelve hours, Soo-ah, comes to fetch Hyo-eun from Malaysia, picks up Annie’s things on her way, talks with Do-woo in order to return Annie’s things to him and spends the night, sitting and speaking with him while waiting for her suitcase to arrive.
They become attached as Do-woo watched Soo-ah taking good care of Annie’s ashes and as Soo-ah watches Do-woo spreading some of Annie’s ashes in the Han river.
Jang Hyun-woo is Do-woo’s best friend and the owner of the bar just below the office where Do-woo works.
Hyun-woo is a witness to the beginning of Soo-ah’s and Do-woo’s relationship and he doesn’t like it too much.
The Parks and Hey-won do not seem to know what to do with their kids, it’s such a shame for the poor girls.
Captain Park thinks that being controlling and cruel is the right way, he treats his wife and daughter with contempt and for some reason, he plays a cruel “If you stop my goals, you can stay in Korea” football game with his daughter who loses and tells him how cruel and childish he is for taking pleasure in winning.
He sends Soo-ah and Hyo-eun away to live with his mother, as if they have no say in this.
Soo-ah is letting her husband take control over her life, she is not fighting him and even moving in with his mother.
Hyo-eun has a hard life being the daughter of a man who smiles at her only when there are strangers around, because he doesn’t want people to catch him being nasty to his own kid.
Although her mother tells her that her opinions will always be her priority, they want her to to live with her father’s sister in New-Zealand, when this plan doesn’t go through, she has to come back to school, to her mocking friends (after she said goodbye to them), then her father ships her off to Malaysia and then she is back at her old school again but living at her grandmother’s place.
How can this be healthy for this kid? Living with two parents who obviously don’t have the time, energy and skills to take good care of her?
Why is there a need to make Do-woo and Soo-ah partners look so bad? A selfish woman who wants any trace of her dead daughter to disappear and a selfish man who is keen on living a single man’s life despite the fact that he has a wife and daughter.
After Annie’s death, Do-woo goes to visit the place where he used to leave her a few times, so that she can meet her father but the man working there told him, that Annie didn’t have a father and she didn’t wait for anyone.
When Do-woo asks Hye-won, she tells him that Annie’s father was dead and she didn’t tell her.
Now Do-woo starts suspecting that something is wrong.
All of a sudden, this turns from a strange love story between two people who are not sure what’s going on, to a mystery?
Who is Annie’s father, why didn’t Hye-won want Annie to come back to Korea? Why did she want to get rid of all her things after here death, what was she really afraid of? When will Soo-ah grow a pair, leave her husband and live happily ever after with Do-woo? Why am I watching this series?
The writing is so bad that they need to ship both girls overseas for their parents to meet, when Soo-a gives Hye-won her glass of beer at the bar but instead of pouring into a plastic takeaway cup, Hye-won walks out with the beer glass in her hand… she still has it in her hand when she is in the car, on her way home.
Soo-ah just happens to find a brochure for the knot school and when she appears there and gets all stressed out when she meets Do-woo and someone calls his name, the two just join hands and run away.
Do-woo knows that his wife is inside and yet, he grabs Soo-ah’s hand, this really makes perfect sense only if he doesn’t care at all about Soo-ah’s good reputation and if he really, really wants to upset his bitchy wife.
This is the kind of writing where the writers force the characters into situations instead of thinking of natural and logical ways to achieve that situation, they invent stuff that doesn’t feel real or convincing.
Why does Jin-seok insist on sending Hyo-eun to study abroad no matter what? Just because he wants her to study English? Nope, it’s simply because Annie and Hyo-eun must study together so that Soo-ah and Do-woo can meet.
Can’t they study together in Korea? Yes, of course they can. Then why Malaysia? Because then, Soo-ah and Do-woo will have to spend the night together, in the airport while waiting for the suitcase with Annie’s stuff to arrive.
Jin-seok claustrophobia? What was that all about? Why is it important to the plot?
I think that at the last minute, the writers realized that no one cares about the bad husband and wife and tried to make them a bit more human, so Jin-seok crumbles at the thought of a separation and Hye-won starts working with kids?
It doesn’t make any sense.
Do-woo starts as a lovely guy with an unstable and selfish wife who hates her own daughter and wants to erase all traces of her once she is dead and all of a sudden, he turns into this creepy guy who chases after a married woman, follows her to her working places, bothers her on the plane…
Mi-jin is the friend from hell, I didn’t even manage to understand why she is such a total bitch to her best friend.
Why I didn’t like this drama:
The forced and often illogical plot line.
The actors are good but the characters are written in such a way that didn’t allow me to get attached to any of them. Perhaps the writers wanted to make a realistic drama but ended up creating something that it both amazingly cheesy and detached from any real feeling and cold.
Everything happens so slowly, the characters can just stand there, looking at each other without saying a word.
This trick can work when it’s a movie but not when it’s a drama with 16 episodes, I mean how many times can you repeat such a trick before it gets old and boring.
I will not even discuss the last few minutes of the drama when you hope for something and end with no real closure.
Why did I like this drama:
The main character’s dimple… I know that it’s not a good enough reason but I’m clutching at straws, since I really didn’t like this drama.
Favorite moment 1 – Do-woo reaches up for his photo on the ceiling of Annie’s bedroom.
Favorite moment 2 – Do-woo, Soo-ah and the wine glass

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Bobby (iKON)

On the 14th of September, Bobby released his first solo album after a few years of anticipation.
What can I say? I already knew that Bobby is a very good rapper and a good singer but he also wrote and composed this whole album, which isn’t as easy as some people might think it is.
I love the MVs, I love the songs, I love his voice and his style (I also adore his collaboration with Mino. Am eagerly the return of the legendary MOBB).
In short, this album makes me happy.

Here are the Two MVs for your viewing pleasure:

I must admit that although I love this whole album, this is my favorite song for now:

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What’s up? (2011)

Jang Jae-hun, who is brought up by his single mother, is hanging out with the wrong crowd and robs drunk people on the street, along with Two other friends.
One night though, something goes wrong and the police arrives.
While trying to escape, Jae-hun causes an accident that results in the death of a pedestrian.
Jae-hun manages to escape the police and the accident scene, while holding on to a piece of paper, baring a name and an address, that the pedestrian was carrying with him.
Plagued by fear and guilt, he escapes into a theater, where he is moved to tears by a singer, performing a song from “The phantom of the opera”, and decides to become an actor.
Ha Do-sung was left by his mother at a young age.
He is told that in order to protect her life (or rather, her life style), he has to live his life without attracting unnecessary attention.
After uploading online songs that he composes and sings, he becomes an internet sensation but since he can’t reveal his face, he always wears a mask and uses the stage name “Hades”.
On his first live performance, he is being photographed by Paparazzi, in his dressing room and without his mask.
While his mother promises to take care of the photographer, Do-sung, has to announce to his adoring audience, that he will not be performing anymore.
His love for music and performing is too strong though and he decides to study at Haneul arts university
Jae-hun returns to the accident’s scene, in order to relieve his guilty conscience, When he asks the seller, at a nearby grocery store, she tells him that the pedestrian has survived, when in fact, he was killed.
Jae-hun mother is willing to give him the money to study acting, and he asks his friend to submit the online form for him.
He is surprised to find that his friend, signed him up for a major in music theater instead of acting, when he doesn’t even know what a musical is.
His spontaneous audition is good enough to spark the teacher’s curiosity and he is accepted.
Eun Jae-young is a famous actress who has never studied the craft, now she who wants to study musical theater and become the best that she can.
Sadly, she is very manipulative and doesn’t mind climbing to the top by using her beauty and charm and stepping all over her school mates in the process.
Park Tae-Yi‘s father was killed in an accident but she keeps on speaking to him and consulting him.
Poor, disoriented Tae-yi, is running all around the campus to try and find the building where her audition is to take place.
Oh Doo-ri come to the auditions with her overly dominating mother who is trying to compensate for her lost marriage and singing career, by turning her daughter into a performing doll.
Doo-ri, who is fed up with being told what to do and how to look, adopts a new rebellious look, that doesn’t sit well with her mother.
Kim Byung-Gun, is talented but suffers from stage fright that makes him lose his voice.
He finds himself in the same dorm room as Lee Soo-Bin, a third year student and already a famous pianist and composer who has won many awards.
Since Soo-bin is famous, Jae-young is shamelessly flirting with him, so that she can use him to her advantage but he is less than responsive to her attempts.
The arrogant and tough Jae-hun, the timid and secretive Do-sung and the enthusiastic and sensitive Tae-yi, form an unlikely friendship.
Professor Sun Woo-young, once a great star of the musical theater, lived as a drunken recluse, in the mountains, after he lost the love of his life.
When he comes back to teach, after Five years, his unusual teaching methods, make Doo-ri fall for him.
Unfortunately, his return, sparks the interests of a Paparazzi photographer, who is lurking in the shadows in order to catch a photo of Do-sung, while posing a threat to Woo-young’s career as a teacher and to Do-sung’s happy life as a normal university student.
As the students are divided into Two groups, for a big show and audition, they have to deal with their insecurities, secrets and lies.

Why didn’t I like it?
On the one hand, this is a cute high-school series but on the other hand, what’s going on with the writing?
As much as I love Byung-gun, how is it possible for someone who is dead afraid of singing in front of people, to get accepted to a music school?
We saw him with our own eyes, auditioning so how was he able to sing then but not after that and why do his teachers, invest so much time in trying to find ways to make him sing?
The same goes for Jae-hun, who didn’t even know what a musical was before he started studying.
This show was supposed to have a second season but very sadly, 2011 wasn’t a very good year for Daesungie and perhaps that’s why the series ends in such a strange and abrupt way with many loose ends.

Why did I like it?
Although I started watching this because I wanted to see Daesung acting, it’s fun series to watch, there are quite a few amusing moments, especially when Byung-gun appears, he is so in love with himself :D.
The songs are nice, Daesung singing rock just made my day and ‘With you’, the shows version of Laura Pausini’s ‘It’s Not Goodbye’ is (at least for me), much better than the original.
Jae-hun’s dilemma about telling Tae-yi about her father is a real one.
In other dramas, the couple breaks up over nonsense but here, he really can’t tell her and going out with her without telling her, is deceiving her.
Favorite moments 1 – Tae-yi can’t find her way anywhere.
Favorite moment 2 – Byung-Gun explains why he can’t prove that he is a good singer, even by recording himself sing.
Favorite moment 3 – Byung-Gun meets a ghost :’) .

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Kwon Ji-yong (AKA G-dragon)

Since I found that the more I wait with posting this, the longer the post gets and I might never finish it, I am making things short-ish and sweet.
G-dragon is a box filled with wonders – A singer/song writer, producer, dancer, fashion icon, model, group leader.
There is the extravagant and flashy G-dragon who is full of confidence and there is Kwon Ji-yong, the shy guy who has a meltdown when he has to watch himself on the screen and who is in constant search of his true self.
The guy who started performing as a Five year old, who is easily embarrassed and is in great need of giving and receiving affection.
G-dragon is Ji-yong’s stage persona but it can be confusing to try and tell the two apart.
But wait… why should I try to tell them apart? It’s not as if there should be any difference for me, as a listener.
So put aside any silly idea that you might have about guys who are pretty as girls or wear feminine clothes and paint their nails.
It might be the real Jiyong or it might be a mask, we will never know because its non of our business but GD kicks ass, he is a smart and talented young man who knows a thing or Two about life.
But wait… what about his chin, his USB, his scandal…
Come on, we are all adults here, right? Let’s stop playing with kaka, alrighty?
Ji has attracting fire ever since he debuted, it’s because he always tries new things and people want the old, comfortable stuff, it’s because others have to constantly be compared with him and work harder, it’s because when a person dresses the way he wants to, some good souls might not like it.

Just listen to the music because the rest is just white noise.

Here is GD, singing his heart out. This song might not have found its way to the CD (or should I say USB?) because GD thought it was too personal.

Who am I, I am kwon-jiyong

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The lover (2015)

The lives on Four unmarried couples who are living in an apartment house in the outskirts of Seoul is being documented over the period of 40 days.
Oh Do-si (35 years old) and Ryu Doo-ri (31 years old) live together in apartment number 609.
They both have temporary jobs, they have been dating for Five years and living together for Two.
Do-si is a good person, just a little childish at times and Doo-ri has little patience and can be very hard on him but they seem to like each other well enough, they just don’t want to get married.
They live the life of a married couple though and at times it looks as if the magic is gone from their relationship.
Apartment 610 houses Jung Young-joon and Choi Ji-nyeo, a couple who has been dating for Two years and living together for One.
Jung Young-joon is a 21 year old guitarist for an little known group, he doesn’t have any money and he lives with Choi Ji-nyeo, who is 33 years old, in her apartment.
Naturally, Young-joon is very immature and often teases Ji-nyeo about her age.
It looks like Ji-nyeo is aware of the fact that this relationship will not last forever.
Lee Joon-jae lives all alone in apartment 709, he hardly ever leaves his place.
He is shy and quiet and likes to live on his own but has to look for a roommate for financial reasons.
Enters Takuya, a very friendly, open and handsome Japanese guy who travels the world.
Joon-jae soon adjust to having another person in his place, especially since he starts falling in love with his seductive roommate.
Park Hwan-jong and Ha Seol-eun are a young couple who live in apartment 510.
They have been living together for only Seven days and already there are troubles in paradise.
Seol-eun is glutenous and selfish and as time goes by, Hwan-jong starts to realize that she might not be the right person for him (I’ve actually realized it from a very earlier stage).
What I didn’t like this series?
It only has 12 episodes but it took forever to finish it because the writing is not even.
Although it tries to be realistic (The character names are the actors real name, to create a more realistic feeling), there are scenes that can’t possibly happen in real life, like Takuya almost killing Joon-jae with his farts (I guess that it was supposed to be funny but I am not a fan of this kind of cheap humor) and Do-si’s attempts to take an unflattering photo of Doo-ri.
If you want to be realistic, be but if you want to roam into fantasy, you are confusing me a little bit.
Plus, there is great focus on Doo-ri and Do-shi, Young-joon and Ji-nyeo and the rest of the couples get very little attention.
For me, even th characters that you get to see more, were under developed and I didn’t really get attached to any of them.
Why I liked this series?
There is a gay couple. It’s the second time (not counting all the bromances that you get to see) that I’ve seen gay men in series.
Despite the fact that you can hardly see them, because the Two main couples, dominate the story-line and despite the fact that they spend most of the time, being evasive, it’s still takes some courage to decide to place Two gay man as a legit couple, among the others.
They are just the most interesting couple there, I’ve seen many comment from people who liked them better than the others, so it’s strange that they ended up with such a small slice of screen time.
As a whole, you can watch this series to pass the time and Takuya and Jae-joon are really cute :).
Favorite moment 1 – Do-si and Doo-ri are making spicy Ramen 😀 .
Favorite moment 2 – A blanket shaking contest :D. This is a brilliant scene.
Favorite moment 3 – Young-joon’s and Pung’s fight over the remote control.
Favorite moment 4 – Young-joon returns to take his old pair of Jeans, I must admit that I cried.

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Choi Seung-hyun (AKA T.O.P)

I know that I’ve written about him before but this is my place and I will do as I please, so there.
The past few days were really hard for me and for other fans of “Bigbang” and T.O.P.
I will not get into the whole ugly mess because you can easily find everything on-line but I will say something that needs to be said.
I can only speak of myself but, T.O.P is important for me simply because he makes me happy.
I love his singing and rapping voice, I love the way he moves, I like the way he writes (I am eagerly awaiting a solo CD), I like his jokes and the way he carefully choses his words when he speaks.
I love the way he is unstoppable when he starts doing silly things, I like the way he is serious when he talks and deals with the things that he loves, like art.
I’ve started off watching “Bigbang” interviews and the first thing that I remember is T.O.P with his crazy blue hair, sitting on the presenter’s lap.
When he was asked why he did it, he didn’t know.
He made me curious and then I’ve heard “Doom dada” and realized that this man is brilliant.

Right now, at this moment, T.O.P’s health situation is unknown – His doctors claim that he is asleep, the police claims that he was conscious when he arrived to the hospital and his mother just said that he was unconscious and he still is.
I’m not a medical expert but yesterday was a nightmare for me and today promises to be the same exact way.
I’m not a religious person, so I can just address any power that exists in this univers and beg it to bring T.O.P back to us, because he is one of a kind and when you are one of a kind, you should be guarded like a precious jewel.

I can only hope for the best and wonder how can it be, that a talented young leader, such as T.O.P found himself in such a situation.
Why was he treated like a criminal when all that he did was smoke weed and why wasn’t he taken to the hospital after he was first found and couldn’t open his eyes?

I love you Choi Seung-hyun, you strange and beautiful person.
I want you to be well, I want you to come back to us. Please.

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