Nam Taehyun

This post has been one that I’ve been planning for a while now and I’m glad that I’m finally going to publish it.
Last year, I was introduced to the whole boy band documentary scene, when watching “Big bang”.
I started looking for other such videos and found a doc about “Winner”.
After watching that, I’ve also watched “Who’s next :Winner”.
One thing that stood out in both these programs, was the fact that Taehyun’s writing and composing skills were approved and supported by Yang Hyun-suk (YG’s CEO).
I think that basically, Taehyun had the great luck of landing in a company that respected his style and didn’t try to shape him into yet another hit machine maker and so, instead of getting a “Big bang” wannabe, we got songs like “Sentimental” and “Baby baby”.
On the other hand though, I got the feeling that Taehyun wasn’t really happy.
At one point he admitted that at times, he is not sure if this is what he wanted to do.
At last, at the end of 2016, after “Winner” went on a very long hiatus and all kinds of rumors were spread, Taehyun has left “Winner” and YG.
Since I was in the middle of watching “Who’s next : Winner”, I felt a little cheated 😀 but also very worried.
Moving from getting supported by such a strong company as YG to being on your own, no matter how talented you are, is hard.
I don’t know what health issues Taehyun was fighting but I was cheering for him all the way and started following his IG and Soundcloud account, to see what he was up to.
Gladly, he kept on creating, then he gathered musicians and formed a new band called “South club”.
Shortly after that, he established his own label and tomorrow (or in fact, today, since it’s already the 26.5.2017), a new song and video are going to be revealed.
Am I excited? Yes, I am.
Why am I so happy for Nam Taehyun? Well, for me it’s the victory of talent over the system.
Not everyone were ment to be singing and dancing machines in a boy band, where the way you look and sound are being decided for you by other people and you constantly have to do things as part of a group.
Taehyun is obviously an individual that wanted to pave his own way in the musical scene and I hope that he will be successful.
I think that he is destined for great things, what do you think?

Here is Namtae and “South club” in their second single and MV.
I love it, don’t you?

Here is “South club”s first song and MV:

Here is “Winner”s Taehyun, singing “I’m young”.
By the way, have you noticed that we never got to see how Taehyun has escaped from the apartment without being discovered by his ex-girl’s man? It was the closet for one moment and then a sad walk down the street.

Here’s the link to Taehyun’s account on Soundcloud

Nam Tae-hyun left “Winner” according to YG entertainment/

Tae-hyun to perform on-stage for the first time since leaving “Winner”

Taehyun creates his own music label, “South buyers club”


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Jealousy incarnate or Jiltueui hwasin (2016)

Pyo Na-ri is weather girl who works as a temp at SBC TV station.
She has failed the auditions for an anchorwoman and what’s even worst, she still has to work as a temp, along with the women against whom she competed, for the anchorwoman’s spot. They are now regular workers at SBC.
In order to support her teenage brother, Pyo Chi-yeol, who is the number one student in his high-school, Na-ri volunteers to do odd jobs at SBC, in hope that her hard work will be a appreciated and she will be promoted.
Lee Hwa-shin is an arrogant Korean foreign correspondent who has been living abroad for the last Three years.
He has escaped the country after ruining his brother’s good name and business for a scoop and has been guilt tripping about it ever since his family has disowned him.
Lee Jong-shin, Hwa-shin’s older brother was once a successful businessman but is now a drunk, who is twice divorced and is raising his daughter, Red, on his own.
Jong-shin’s first wife, Kye Sung-sook is Red’ mother, once a reporter and now an anchorwoman at SBC.
Bang Ja-young, Jong-shin’s second ex-wife is a chief announcer at SBC and is Sung-sook’s superior.
The two women have lost connection with Red and are bitter rivals at work.
Lee Ppal-gang (AKA Red) is Sung-sook and Jong-shin’s daughter.
She loves her father and seeing him ruined, has caused her to become a troubled kid and a bad student who is last not only in her class but in the whole school.
Red is Chi-yeol and Oh Dae-goo’s classmate and they are also neighbors and best friends.
Kim Rak is a chef and the owner of Rak restaurant, he is Na-ri’s landlord and cares for her, her brother and his friends as if they were his own family.
When Ja-young and Sung-sook move in with Red, they compete for Rak’s heart.
When the chance to help a broadcast in Thailand presents itself, Na-ri offers to join the news team as a jack of all trades – A hair stylist, dresser and makeup artist.
On the plane, Na-ri takes Go Jung-won‘s place and he falls in love with her at first sight.
Jung-won is a rich and handsome chebol, he is also Hwa-shin’s best friend and soul brother from youth.
At the airport in Thailand, Na-ri bumps into Hwa-shin. Oh joy, he treats her like dirt.
While forcing Hwa-shin to dress up for his broadcast, Na-ri accidentally touches his chest and thinks that she can feel a lump.
Being the granddaughter and daughter of cancer patients, Na-ri is worried about Hwa-shin.
Jung-won and Na-ri meet again on set, when he comes to visit Hwa-shin and they get to spend some time together.
Hwa-shin has returned to Korea and face the implications of his treacherous scoop against his brother.
When Jong-shin drinks too much and falls down the stairs, sustains a blow to the head and is hospitalized in a coma, Red’s friends rush in to help her cope and her mother’s resume connection.
Na-ri plans on filling the free national recruitment form and reapplying for an anchorwoman’s spot but before she manages to do it, she is tricked by a fellow weather girl and shows up drunk to work, which results in her dismissal.
Jung-won gets hold of Na-ri’s cellular phone number and asks his secretary to call her up and complain about the weather forecast, after Na-ri has told him on the plane, that she dreams of having someone call her up and complain, as a proof that someone watches her weather broadcasts.
Despite Na-ri’s warnings, Hwa-shin doesn’t think that a man can get breast cancer but has a reality check when he has a checkup after a car accident, and discovers that the lump in his chest in cancerous.
Na-ri has a benign lump that needs removal and she finds herself recovering from the procedure, in the same hospital room as Hwa-shin.
Meanwhile at SBC, Na-ri’s drunken weather report, has high ratings and they want her to come back to work at once.
Despite the fact that she went through an operation, Na-ri makes her way from the hospital to the station, where she manages to complete her bit and then faints in the arms of Jung-won, who takes her back to the hospital.
When Jong-shin dies at the hospital, after a phone call to Hwa-shin and a note that he leaves for Rak, Sung-soo and Ja-young, are busy looking for Red and at last, find out where she lives after meeting Rak.
Rak knows that Jong-shin’s note gives instructions as to which mother should take care of Red but he decides to check and see for himself who is the best mother.
Ja-young and Sung-soo both decide to move in with the very reluctant Red and take care of her.
Since Na-ri is the only one who knows about Hwa-shin’s condition, she is the only one who tries to take care of him.
While trying to fight his developing feelings for her, Hwas-sin, sets up a date between Na-ri and Jung-won and has to watch as his best friend and the woman that he likes, start dating.
Will Hwa-shin betray his best friend and try to win Na-ri’s heart, after despising and rejecting her for Three years?
Not knowing that Rak has a problem with the ladies and is interested in them just because of the note, Sung-soo and Ja-young, both develop a crush on him.
As it happens, Rak is Jung-woon’s uncle and Kim Tae-ra, Jung-woon’s mother is trying to help a problem that he has with special pills.
The pills seem to work and Rak is now interested in Red’s two mothers.
Which one will he end up with, if at all?
What I liked about this series –
Apart from Hwa-shin’s illness, there aren’t any secrets and problems are usually taken care of quickly enough. Even the much expected “I am sick so I’m going to disappear without saying anything and leave you all alone/behave as if I hate you all of a sudden and breakup with you, without telling you the real reason behind it” is being avoided.
Hwa-shin and Jung-woon are true friends and they are honest with each other and with Na-ri and this series doesn’t have the all too familiar “best friend who turns into a hateful person so the heroine’s choice is obvious and easy” syndrome.
This drama starts off with the very strange feeling that Gong Hyo-jin is playing the same, weird and annoying character that she has played in “Master’s sun” (minus the whole seeing ghosts deal).
Soon enough, though, an explanation is offered for her strange behavior and this turns into a very nice series that has some serious themes along with the usual lovey dovey one.
What I didn’t like –
Why, oh why does Na-ri keep on touching Hwa-shin’s chest with no explanation? Explain why you are doing it and then just stop.
The strange song at the wedding.
Jo Jung-suk is very cute when he dances and sings but it looked like they really just wanted him to sing so the OST can sell well and didn’t have any other excuse to have him perform like this, at any other part of the series.
Hwa-shin’s betrayal seems a bit strange. Didn’t he know that advertising such a scandal in the news will ruin his brother? If he did, he is not much of a brother so why bother to come back and search for his niece?
Hwa-shin is portrayed as a real asshole right from the start – He is rude to some guy because he wants his shirt and his girl, he is being very rude and cruel to Na-ri when she has a crush on him and then, when they are dating and she has chosen him over Jung-woon, he drops her out of the election broadcast in favor of someone else.
Jung-woon blames Hwa-shin for not telling Na-ri that he was not interested in her and letting her continue with her one-sided love for him but really, I think that Na-ri could have figured it by herself since Hwa-shin didn’t hide his contempt and dislike for her.
The story between Rak and the mothers is not fully developed, which is a shame.
Favorite moment 1 – Hwa-shin is having his breast examined. This bit has actually made me burst into laughter.
Favorite moment 2 – Hwa-shin and Na-ri’s bra discussion.
Favorite moment 3 – Jung-won spoons Hwa-shin
Favorite moment 4 – Jung-woon drags Hwa-shin on the beach, while Na-ri happily collects octopuses.
Favorite moment 4 – Hwa-shin asks the women of SBC to date him.
favorite moment 5 – A sweet and funny bed scene. Turtlenecks are so annoying 😀 .

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Weightlifting fairy Kim Bok Joo or Yeokdo-yojeong Gim Bok-ju (2016 – 2017)

Kim Bok-joo is a 21 year old weightlifter and gold medalist who attends a sports university.
Bok-joo’s mother died when she was young and she is brought up by her father, Kim Chang-gul, who owns “Bok chicken” restaurant.
Chang-gul’s younger brother, Kim Dae-ho helps at the restaurant and is also an actor.
Jung Joon-hyung, who attends the same university is a talented swimmer with a trauma that stand in his way to success.
The rhythmic gymnastic team and the weightlifter team are bitter enemies and when a rhythmic gymnast, blames the weightlifters for stealing their clothes and Kim Bok-joo’s lucky T-shirt disappears, things get out of hand.
Joon-hyung almost runs over Bok-joo with his bike and then drops a lacy handkerchief on the grass, which Bok-joo finds and keeps.
When the girls discover that a pervert has been stealing their clothes, Bok-joo blames Joon-hyung, because of the handkerchief but after the real pervert is found, Bok-joo has to admit that she has wrongly accused Joon-hyung and return returns his handkerchief.
They both suddenly remember that they once studied in the same elementary school for a short while and Bok-joo even saved Joon-hyung’s life when he was fell out of his class’ window and landed on her.
From then on, Joon-hyung starts annoying and pestering Bok-joo.
Song Shi-ho is senior at the university and rhythmic gymnast with a silver medal,
To her dismay, Bok-joo has to share her room with Shi-ho, who apart from being a gymnast and therefor, a weightlifter’s nemesis, is also Joon-hyung’s ex girlfriend.
Shi-ho’s relationship with Joon-hyung, got in the way of her gymnastic career and so she broke up with him, at a difficult time in his life.
After he has helped her and sheltered her from the rain with his umbrella, Bok-joo falls in love with Jung Jae-yi, a doctor who works as a dietitian and Joon-hyung’s older brother.
Despite the fact that she can’t possibly go on a diet if she wants to compete and win weightlifting contests, Bok-joo decides to join Jae-yi’s advertised diet program as an excuse to see him.
Joon-hyung has fun teasing and tormenting Bok-joo, even more so after he discovers that she likes his brother.
Bok-joo is doing great and is losing weight but then, her coacher decides that she has a chance of winning a medal if she gains a few kilos and joins the 63 Kilos class.
Bok-joo would have jumped at the chance to eat more at any other time but gaining weight goes against the diet program that she is on because she wants to meet Jae-yi.
Meanwhile, Shi-ho is desperately trying to control the uncontrollable and natural process of getting older and having a woman’s body.
Frustration and stress makes her sleepwalk and binge eat.
Her parents, who have been supporting her despite being poor, decide to get a divorce, her coach is not pleased with her and criticize her mistakes.
Si-ho, who needs someone to lean on, desperately tries to get back with Joon-hyung, who is not interested in her anymore.
Jung Nan-hee is small, chubby and chatty and is the “expert” when it comes to guys.
Lee Seon-ok is tough and silent, the two are weightlifters, roommates and Bok-joo’s best friends.
Go Ah-young is Jae-yi’s best friend, she has been in love with him for years.
Jo Tae-kwon is Joon-hyung’s roommate and best friend.
Yoon Deok-man is the weightlifting team’s coach, he is so devoted to the team that despite his poor financial state, he tries to support the team by buying them food with his own money.
Choi Sung-eun is the weightlifting team’s assistent coach.
She is a strong and confident person who cares deeply about the team members and Deok-man.

Here is the annoying thing. In almost every drama that I’ve watched, there is the career driven ex-girlfriend, who ends the relationship all of a sudden and then comes back and demands to continue the relationship, as if nothing has happened.
Most times, it happens right when her ex-boyfriend has found a new girl that he is happy with.
Here, at least, Shi-ho feels bad about what she is doing and is aware of the fact that since she was the one responsible for destroying her relationship, she has no one to blame but herself.
I also really didn’t like the way Bok-joo was forced to eat, after her coaches found out that she was going to the diet clinic.
Sung-eun even hits here, which is unacceptable.
I can understand the anger because both her father and the coaches have invested so much in her and she is the hope for a medal and blah blah blah but hitting a student because you think that he did something wrong and you are disappointed in him? Force feeding him huge amounts of food? I didn’t like that one bit.
I also didn’t like the fact that someone as beautiful and healthy as Bok-joo decides to go on a diet but at least, she was doing it because she wanted to see her first love and she didn’t go on one of these crazy diets on her own but was under a doctor’s supervision.
From what I’ve read on Wikipedia, this series was a commercial failure, which proves that not every good series is a success.
The actors are good, the writing (apart from a few glitches… I mean, A kid is falling out of the window and lands on another kid and none of them is hurt?)is very good and I think that this is one of the most believable and natural relationships that I’ve ever seen in a series.
I liked this series, it’s sweet and heartwarming.
Favorite moment 1 – Jung Nan-hee is taking a drunken selfie and disturbing people at the pub.
Favorite moment 2 – Bok-joo infects Joon-hyung with her cold.
Favorite moment 3 – Joon-hyung tries to cheer Bok-joo up by taking her to dinner and a club.
Favorite moment 4 – “Kim Boj-joo, swag.” 😀
Favorite moment 5 – An angel and a devil in the amusement park.
Favorite moment 6 – Bok-joo finds Joon-hyung floating in the pool.

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Watching “Weekly idol” is a great way to get to know new… well, idols :).
Bolbbalgan4 is a duo, a great duo of two slightly awkward, young women who really know how to write songs and perform them.
Woo Ji-yoon plays the guitar and bass guitar, she also raps and sings back-vocals while Ahn Ji-young provides the main ones.
The studio version and the live ones that I’ve heard are really good and they are not signed to one of the big companies so good for them for making it.
I must say that a little part of my affection for these two, derives from the fact that they do not dance.
As much as watching your idols dance on stage when singing is fun and cool, it is also very hard for the singer.
For me, it spoils part of the fun of listening, since you can never know if the show could have been better, had the singer been standing in one spot instead of dancing.
Other than that, I don’t know how to dance so it makes me really relate to these two and love them ever better for it :D.

Here’s the horribly cute video of “Tell me you love me”.
My absolute favorite part of this song, is the modulation that comes strangely and surprisingly enough at the end of the song.

Here is a live performance of the same song.

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Kang Dae-sung or Daesung or D-Lite (Big bang)

When I was in high-school, I had a classmate who was always smiling.
I’ve met her again, about two years ago in a class reunion and when I’ve told her that I remember her always laughing, she said:”If only you knew how much pain was behind my smile.”

When I first started watching “Big bang” interviews, I thought that Daesung was ugly.
I’ve watched the documentary which was made before their debut and Daesung was this thin kid with bad skin and a high voice.
He seemed to be very timid and introvert and he told a story about his dad that made me think that he had a very hard time at home.
Smiling means “I am friendly and mean no harm. Please love me.” but it also means “There is nothing wrong, see? I am smiling so all is well.”
The fact that he was always smiling, to the point where he freaked out G-dragon and made T.O.P annoyed, gave me the impression that he was used to hiding his feeling from others and dealing with his problems on his own.

This feeling was confirmed after I’ve watched other videos and interviews with the group, in which they’ve admitted that although Daesung is someone that is a good listener and they can speak with him about eberything, they know him the least.

What’s more, the narrator of the “Big bang” documentary, had no problem with telling the audience that YG’s employees used to refer to Daesung as the ugly kid.
I don’t know what kind of self esteem Daesung had at that point but I’m sure that it wasn’t much fun, knowing that people thought of him as ugly.
On the other hand though, the narrator also said that right from the beginning, Daesung was the most popular member of the group among the fan girls.
My guess is that it was his smile.
Daesung said on “Come to play” that he was told that he was chosen to be a YG trainee because of his smile but I find that hard to believe, considering his great voice and his dancing talent.

I watched other shows and interviews and as time passed, I found that Daesung was one of these rare people who becomes really attractive with time, without changing anything about his facial features.
In my family, we call these kind of people – The beautiful uglies.
These are people who might not have perfect features but they have this magic and charm that makes them irresistible when you watch them.
They become beautiful and attractive.

What makes Daesung so attractive?
He has a great voice, he’s a great dancer, he knows how to play the drums and that makes him really cool, singing while drumming is not as easy as he makes it look.
He is a really funny guy and a brilliant comic, I would love to see him acting in a movie or a series (I’m just about to start watching “What’s up”, so stay tuned for the review :)).
Apart from all of these, he has no problem laughing at his own expense, which I adore.
As T.O.P mentioned in an early video, Daesung likes to read and I am a librarian so yes, he gets extra points for expanding his mind :* .
Last but not least, I love him dearly because from what I’ve seen, he is the only member of “Big bang” who didn’t do anything to him face, surgically wise.
You can argue but it’s obvious that Seungri, Taeyang, T.O.P and G-dragon had different noses when they were younger.
It’s also obvious that although they don’t look so different from what they’ve looked like before, they still look much better.
Daesung looks almost the same as he did in the debut videos with one big difference though, he has a killer body now.
He didn’t fix his nose or his teeth, he took good care of his skin so it looks smooth and amazing now and he worked out.

I know that he had problem with his voice and was plagued by stage fright because of it.
I know that after his accident, he locked himself in his dorm room and didn’t want to see anyone. He admitted that he thought of ending his life.
G-dragon said that Daesung is the kind of person who will never take the credit when things go well but will always blame himself when things go badly, Taeyang said that Deasung is wise beyond his years, T.O.P said that Daesung is very smart, Seungri said that Daesung is like a grandmother, always worrying and taking care of group members.

I don’t know what Daesung thinks of himself but I suspect that he is still his worst critic.
It’s obvious that he is a very hard worker but when he talks of his skills he always makes them seem less than they are, saying that he can’t really dance and that his voice is humble and weak.

Hi there Daesung, you are a great dancer, you have an amazing voice, your drumming kicks ass.
You are smart, so smart that you are the only one of Big bang who doesn’t have an account on any of the social platforms and so you save yoursel from the idiocy of some people, who can’t control their desires and their tongues.
(In a recent interview to Anan Magazine, Daesung said that he did open an Instagram account at one point, just out of curiosity but never really used it because he finds little interest in experiencing life through the lens of a camera instead of looking at the real thing.
If this isn’t a smart way of living, I don’t know what is.)
You are so very funny, you can’t really learn that kind of funny… even if you claim that you’ve learned it from T.O.P.
You are not a copycat, you are the original thing with all your wrong and all of your rights.
You are beautiful, really and truly and as time goes by, you just get handsomer.

Here is Daesung, singing a 2NE1 song called “Ugly”.
I like this version because it takes courage to sing such a song when you were once considered to be the ugly kid of your group and perhaps, you still feels this way from time to time and also, this gives Daesung the chance to sing Rock and he is really good at it.


I added this because, well, because Daesung seems to be not only a great singer and performer but also a good support system to people, another good example (although on a different level, since these people are best friends and group mates) the way Daesung takes care of T.O.P.
Dara wanted to learn to drum, YG objected (Pfff, really. What’s up with him?) but Deasung supported and encouraged her to try.

For me, by the way, trying to stop someone from discovering his talents because… what? She is a woman, looks delicate and it can “hurt her image”? is a sign of narrow mindedness, so boo to you on this, YG.
From @daesungfishh

Daesung’s interview on Anan magazine  as translated and posted on Twitter by Marie

A snippet from Daesung’s interview with Bijin Hyakka, April 2017 edition, as translated by Twitter’s @mshinju (Marie) and scanned by Twitter’s @daefight (DaeFight_姜大声大发站) .

The full interview


Daesung’s message to Big bang’s fans on the group’s 10th anniversary, as translated by Twitter’s mshinju and posted by FaceBook’s VIP Universe

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Fans and the idol’s right for privacy

Fans are a fascinating subject that I intend to write more about and it’s taking me a very long time, because there are all kinds of fans and also because I have no intention to hurt anyone but I also get so angry about people who probably fancy themselves to be really devoted fans and great lovers of someone, when in fact, it is only their selfish needs that they think about.
We can start off again with T.O.P, frankly because I’ve been following his Instagram account and was exposed to quite a few fans who have lost the fine line between being a fan and being rude and shameless.

Let us begin a few months ago, when T.O.P has posted a black image with a crying smiley and a plea to some fans to please stop ringing his doorbell at night because it frightens him so.
Now, ringing someones doorbell and running away, is something that kids do, so my first assumption was that these were silly fan girls who have lost their minds and thought that bothering their favorite singer in the middle of the night is a fun thing to do.
I’m pretty sure that they didn’t mean any harm but there are fans all over the world who are obsessive and dangerous and you can never know what they will do. How are you supposed to distinguish these fans from the regular ones and assume that the ones ringing your doorbell are up to no harm?
Plus, if someone was to ring your doorbell in the middle of the night, what would you think as you stumble out of bed in your pajama and run to the door, half asleep?
“Oh, these are my cute fans, who want to see me just for a second because they love me so”? or “Oh my god, who can it be at this time of night? I hope that nothing has happened to my mother/father/sister/nephew/friends.”

If this were a one time thing, then I guess that he wouldn’t have bothered but since this went on and on, he has decided to write about it and beg them to stop.
Alas, there are fans who do not know the limit and think that because they buy CDs and show tickets, they own their idol and so they can do as they please with him and he is supposed to accept it with love.

After this has happened, I saw an old post about GD, who was stalked by some fans at his house and was so frightened, that he fell down.
My guess is that these fans, thought that it was really funny and cute and perhaps even managed to snap a few photos of him.

One day after T.O.P’s plea, Gd’s private Instagram account was hacked into and fans actually shared his private photos.
Fans… perhaps ‘fans’ is not the right word anymore?
After than, there was much talk about privacy and the right that these idols have to it and the need to respect it on-line and in RL.
Quite a few fan Instagram accounts, have announced that they were not going to share GD’s private photos and there was a hunt after the ones who did.
Not all fans are alike, some of them really respect and love their idols but some think of themselves as fans but think only of themselves.

T.O.P has enlisted to the army on the 9th, he posted many images of himself before, to please his fans and say goodbye and then after he has chosen to enlist secretly, without fans nor media activities before, he said that he wants his enlistment to be low-key and quiet and so he asks the fans understanding even if he goes without saying goodbye.
That very same night, when I checked my Instagram account, I was greeted by a photo of fans and at least one camer crew, waiting for T.O.P at the training military base.

I went to bed angry and then got up to images and videos of lonely T.O.P, all wrapped up in a long coat, the hood pulled over his face, walking all alone.

This was not a documentation of someone who wants to meet other people but of someone who wants to have his privacy, just as he has asked.

I well remember this moment of saying goodbye and getting on the bus, as one of the saddest and scariest moments of my life. I was an unknown 18 year old girl.
I really don’t want to know what went through T.O.P’s mind in these moments.
You are going towards the unknown, you are surrounded by strangers, you are famous and you really don’t want to stand out more than you already do and if you are shy, sensitive, used to having you own space and someone picks on you because of these fans… I really would rather not think about it.

You really don’t want anyone to take your photo at this moment. You did ask for them not to be there and let you go in peace.
They did not respect your wishes.
For some reason, respecting your wish and privacy, wasn’t as important as getting a snapshot of you, saluting.
For some reason, flying huge helium balloons over a military base, was very important.

These idols work so hard, they go through so much for their fans. They really try to please them by doing fan service and having fan meetings, in which they have all kinds of silly games and wear all kinds of silly clothes.
When they think that they have offended someone, they apologize.
They have cameras, following them everywhere, documenting every step that they take and they are trying to always be kind to their fans, even when the fans are pushy and rude.
Where on earth, other than Asia, do fans get this kind of attention and treatment?
After being treated so kindly, they couldn’t even respect his wish and just had to be there with their balloons and cameras.
I will not even go into the fact that flying anything over a military base is a bad, bad idea.

Today, I even got to see one of these women, saying that they left everything in order when they left. As if it even matters.
Had he wanted, he could have said goodbye, there would be many fans there and also media but he wanted to enlist secretly.
So yes, he did ask you not to be there and he did it so nicely but since you wanted to “show support”, you didn’t care about what he has asked you for because, frankly, he didn’t want any fans there but obviously, since he knows you so well, he wouldn’t mind if YOU were there.
Let’s face it, you wanted to be there so that you will have photos to share with the people on your fan page. You wanted to be the one who will update other people as to how it was and then people might think that you are really lucky to be there and you will feel good about having such a close imaginary relationship with your idol.
For shame. what were these disrespectful women thinking? What’s for sure is that they weren’t thinking of T.O.P at all.

Saying all this, there are also great fans.
Fans who will not spread photos of T.O.P as he didn’t want to be seen, fans who miss him and not because they can’t leave comments on his posts, in hope of getting noticed, fans who respect his privacy.

T.O.P fans are facing criticism for their senseless gifts

T.O.P and Kim Junsu enlist

T.O.P warns fans not to ring his doorbell at night

Fans stalk GD at his house

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T.O.P and the army

In Two more days, T.O.P will return to being Choi Seung-hyun again and enlist to the army.
I will say a few words about this because what I see online, regarding this, makes me unhappy.

T.O.P is the first one of his group to enlist so his enlistment marks the first of Four other enlistments and the end of “Bigbang” performances as a group for a few years.
It’s really a big, big thing for a group like “Bigbang”, who has millions of fans all over the world and has been so active and famous and of course, it’s a big deal for the fans.
The other members will be busy for a while with their solo careers, there are Three new CDs due from Taeyang, GD and Seungri, and Daesung is to perform in Japan.
From this year on, each member of “Bigbang” will enlist to the army when his time comes.

As one who has served Two years in the army, in an army group, I can say that enlisting is not great fun but it’s not a big tragedy either, especially if you know what you are going to do as a soldier.
I enlisted when I was 18, T.O.P is 30.
There is a huge difference between a carefree 18 year old, who has just finished high-school and has no responsibilities and a guy who has a blooming career and millions of fans.
He has his routine that has been going on for years and years and now, he has to give it up.
Change is scary, especially as you get older, and with the tension between South and North Korea, it’s logical to be worried and afraid.
It’s also logical that if he walks around the streets of Seoul as a cop, he will get some attention that might make his service a bit more difficult than the other cops.
He might be worried about what will happen when he comes back, since fans love can be fickle, although there are so many fans who love him and will be waiting for him.
He is also obviously emotional these days.
So what am I angry about?
I’m angry about the people who treat him like a poor baby who is just about to break down.
I am angry at the fans who love him so much but don’t give him one ounce of credit for being a grownup, who will do his duty and do it well.
He is 30 years old, he has managed his affairs very well, he is very smart and capable and there is no doubt that he might get lonely and even sad or scared because he is only human, but he will manage.
He is not going to the ends of the world, he is going to be in Seoul and so, I’m sure that he will have at least few opportunities to see group members, friends and family. He will not be all alone.
Since T.O.P will be busy with training and doing his job, the people who will suffer most are the people waiting for him and not him, so please, stop the pity fest.

Other than this, I really cringed when I read people getting excited over the photos and videos of him crying during a show.
It’s not amusing, it’s not tragic either. He is emotional, just let him be.

People have said that since he has a history of depression, it’s evident that he will be depressed over enlisting and I say, if he is depressed, you are only making it worst by harping on an on about it and weeping on his Instagram page.
If he is depressed, he needs your love and support, not your constant reminders of what is soon to be.
Encourage him, don’t make him feel like this is the end of the world.

T.O.P has decided to enlist privately, without greeting the fans or media.
I think that considering the way fans are reacting to his enlistment, it’s a very wise choice and who needs all of these cameras in his face?
For once he will be where cameras are not allowed, such a relief.
I’m pretty sure that there will be fans waiting for him all the same, because fans do as they please.
I will miss this unique individual for the time that he will not post and will wait for his return.
Be safe, wonderful T.O.P, my ears will miss your special voice.

The Nonsan training camp winter schedule

T.O.P’s army enlistment, service and discharge schedule

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